Insulting....You disgust me...

If somebody insutls you by something,how would you feel??

Angry??Sad??Disappointed??

Change another thought...

If somebody insults you in front of everybody else,how would you feel??

Feeling 10 times the angryness??Sadness and disappointed??

What I learn in my life,is to not insult people....

Don't get me wrong,insulting people is such a childish way...

Plus you have to insult somebody in front of everybody...

Why I start this topic??

Because my choreographer was insulted by somebody....

Saying my choreographer's step was copied from 1 of his piece (little in fact)...

So what he copied??

That doesn't mean that you have to insult him....

I respect both of my choreographers...

But the only thing I can't of him is his damn ass attitude....

I know you are great and all..

That doesn't give you the damn ass right to say shit to people's choreography...

1 day I will burst my bubble and just telling him...

"Hey,change your damn attitude..."

That 1 day will not come eventually...

I'm just to chicken to say so....

It's just not fair for him to say shit things about people....

Especially not in front of the public...

Sorry....

I'm sorry for not choosing your path...

I went the other way...

I chose not to walk on your path because it was too prefect....

You are too nice...too gentle to me...

So i can't afford to have you as my walking path road...

You are too caring...too sweet to me...

So i can't afford to make you sad or angry...

I don't wish to hurt you...

So i chose to leave then accept...

Sorry....

Is it worth it??

Is it worth it?

I always ask myself the same old question...

All the work,all the sweat I gave,all the pain I suffer...

In the end,is it worth it??

I love dancing....

I love it so much i can sacrifise anything for it,even love....

I can die for it...

But to think it twice....

What you love matters or your future more important??

Dancing or my future??

Dancing is my future but will my future be dancing??

I got scolde by instructors,seniors......

I got hurt,i fell,i cry....

For what??

For the love for dance....

If it wasn't for dancing,I would be at home working for my parents and earn money easy...

Is it worth it??

Still asking myself every morning I wake up from bed....

Is a nightmare for me but a dream for my future...

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going...
just in words,nobody really understands or even feel these words...
i did...and is really true for my situation now...

A senior of mine named Liew Yong Xian came back from Korea last saturday...
He study dance choreography at Korea by schlorship...
He's a penang boy and he started his dancing dream at the age of 16...
He was awarded best male contemporary dancer in Malaysia...
He's a good example to all dancers who didn't start dancing by young...
His story tells us if you give all you got and all your effort of what you want,your dream will never be far from you...
His moral story teaches me not to be afraid to learn and to try or to be laugh at....
Come in strong and never to be afraid to fall...

Today (7 Jan 2009)....
He gave us a warm up session...
And it's pillates....more to extension of muscles and breathing...
He also thought us the process of auditions overseas....
How to introduce yourself,the things to do and more...
Learn many things I never know before...thanks to him,I know now...
We did his choreography too...
And it's different and much more harder from what we learn...
It's more to dangerous stunts and dynamics...
I got hurt because I wasn't careful....

Learn many new things today...
Thanks to him...
This makes me want to give all my hardest and effort to learn things we never learn in ASK...

The things i'm going through right now will never be as simple as before...
Is going to be tougher and tougher and injuries will come..
Challenges,stunts,choreographies....more to come...