Saturday, January 10, 2009

Sorry....

I'm sorry for not choosing your path...
I went the other way...
I chose not to walk on your path because it was too prefect....

You are too nice...too gentle to me...
So i can't afford to have you as my walking path road...
You are too caring...too sweet to me...
So i can't afford to make you sad or angry...

I don't wish to hurt you...
So i chose to leave then accept...

Sorry....

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Is it worth it??

Is it worth it?
I always ask myself the same old question...
All the work,all the sweat I gave,all the pain I suffer...
In the end,is it worth it??

I love dancing....
I love it so much i can sacrifise anything for it,even love....
I can die for it...

But to think it twice....
What you love matters or your future more important??
Dancing or my future??
Dancing is my future but will my future be dancing??

I got scolde by instructors,seniors......
I got hurt,i fell,i cry....
For what??
For the love for dance....
If it wasn't for dancing,I would be at home working for my parents and earn money easy...

Is it worth it??
Still asking myself every morning I wake up from bed....
Is a nightmare for me but a dream for my future...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going...
just in words,nobody really understands or even feel these words...
i did...and is really true for my situation now...

A senior of mine named Liew Yong Xian came back from Korea last saturday...
He study dance choreography at Korea by schlorship...
He's a penang boy and he started his dancing dream at the age of 16...
He was awarded best male contemporary dancer in Malaysia...
He's a good example to all dancers who didn't start dancing by young...
His story tells us if you give all you got and all your effort of what you want,your dream will never be far from you...
His moral story teaches me not to be afraid to learn and to try or to be laugh at....
Come in strong and never to be afraid to fall...

Today (7 Jan 2009)....
He gave us a warm up session...
And it's pillates....more to extension of muscles and breathing...
He also thought us the process of auditions overseas....
How to introduce yourself,the things to do and more...
Learn many things I never know before...thanks to him,I know now...
We did his choreography too...
And it's different and much more harder from what we learn...
It's more to dangerous stunts and dynamics...
I got hurt because I wasn't careful....

Learn many new things today...
Thanks to him...
This makes me want to give all my hardest and effort to learn things we never learn in ASK...

The things i'm going through right now will never be as simple as before...
Is going to be tougher and tougher and injuries will come..
Challenges,stunts,choreographies....more to come...

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year 2009

Happy new year 2009 guys...
What's your new year resolution??
What's my new year resolution??

I haven't thought about it yet...
Maybe hope the best in life...
Be a better person...

Goodbye 2008...
Hello 2009...

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

认错

回来了嘛。。
觉得说错话该认错。。
该不该原谅呢??

之前受过的伤痕。。
就因为你那句对不起,就应该原谅吗??
我不知道该这么做决定。。
该狠吗??
该原谅吗??

伤口可以一瞬间的不见吗??
恨可以一瞬间的忘记吗??
做不做得到也是个问题。。

该不该原谅你??
认错。。
认错了,有多大不了。。

Saturday, December 13, 2008

I'll think about it????????

Today...13 Dec 2008
A very fucking shit day....shit like hell

A guy ask something from me but then i answered him I'll think about it
and now today i answered him about accepting his favor...instead he answered me back "I'll think about it????"

What the ASS fucking was that...??
Shit ass
I was so fucking pist about it when i heard him answer..
feeling like slapping him in the face....

And now he might think I'm desperate.....
Desperate...??
Me..??
To him..??
not in a million fucking years...

Listen good "you"
I'm taking back what i said to you...
You can forget about it....
Ass Hole....
Go find somebody else to fit those shoes....

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Sooner,later or now??

Soon??
Later??
Now??
When??

Is too early to accept...
Will it be too late??
Or is it now??
So when??

I think never...
But still think can..
Never be now...
Then when??

Asking...
Searching..
Hunting..
The End???

NOTHING....