Is it worth it??

Is it worth it?

I always ask myself the same old question...

All the work,all the sweat I gave,all the pain I suffer...

In the end,is it worth it??

I love dancing....

I love it so much i can sacrifise anything for it,even love....

I can die for it...

But to think it twice....

What you love matters or your future more important??

Dancing or my future??

Dancing is my future but will my future be dancing??

I got scolde by instructors,seniors......

I got hurt,i fell,i cry....

For what??

For the love for dance....

If it wasn't for dancing,I would be at home working for my parents and earn money easy...

Is it worth it??

Still asking myself every morning I wake up from bed....

Is a nightmare for me but a dream for my future...

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going

When the going gets tough,the tough gets going...
just in words,nobody really understands or even feel these words...
i did...and is really true for my situation now...

A senior of mine named Liew Yong Xian came back from Korea last saturday...
He study dance choreography at Korea by schlorship...
He's a penang boy and he started his dancing dream at the age of 16...
He was awarded best male contemporary dancer in Malaysia...
He's a good example to all dancers who didn't start dancing by young...
His story tells us if you give all you got and all your effort of what you want,your dream will never be far from you...
His moral story teaches me not to be afraid to learn and to try or to be laugh at....
Come in strong and never to be afraid to fall...

Today (7 Jan 2009)....
He gave us a warm up session...
And it's pillates....more to extension of muscles and breathing...
He also thought us the process of auditions overseas....
How to introduce yourself,the things to do and more...
Learn many things I never know before...thanks to him,I know now...
We did his choreography too...
And it's different and much more harder from what we learn...
It's more to dangerous stunts and dynamics...
I got hurt because I wasn't careful....

Learn many new things today...
Thanks to him...
This makes me want to give all my hardest and effort to learn things we never learn in ASK...

The things i'm going through right now will never be as simple as before...
Is going to be tougher and tougher and injuries will come..
Challenges,stunts,choreographies....more to come...

Happy New Year 2009

Happy new year 2009 guys...

What's your new year resolution??

What's my new year resolution??

I haven't thought about it yet...

Maybe hope the best in life...

Be a better person...

Goodbye 2008...

Hello 2009...

认错

回来了嘛。。
觉得说错话该认错。。
该不该原谅呢？？

之前受过的伤痕。。
就因为你那句对不起，就应该原谅吗？？
我不知道该这么做决定。。
该狠吗？？
该原谅吗？？

伤口可以一瞬间的不见吗？？
恨可以一瞬间的忘记吗？？
做不做得到也是个问题。。

该不该原谅你？？
认错。。
认错了，有多大不了。。

I'll think about it????????

Today...13 Dec 2008
A very fucking shit day....shit like hell

A guy ask something from me but then i answered him I'll think about it
and now today i answered him about accepting his favor...instead he answered me back "I'll think about it????"

What the ASS fucking was that...??
Shit ass
I was so fucking pist about it when i heard him answer..
feeling like slapping him in the face....

And now he might think I'm desperate.....
Desperate...??
Me..??
To him..??
not in a million fucking years...

Listen good "you"
I'm taking back what i said to you...
You can forget about it....
Ass Hole....
Go find somebody else to fit those shoes....

Sooner,later or now??

Soon??
Later??
Now??
When??

Is too early to accept...
Will it be too late??
Or is it now??
So when??

I think never...
But still think can..
Never be now...
Then when??

Asking...
Searching..
Hunting..
The End???

NOTHING....

Is it true about guys??

21 things girls don't realize about guys
1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?..uh...never mind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is Guys rarely say that

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know somethings up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life