Dying

To die...
everybody dies...
Who??When??Where??How??

But before we die...
We will hope for something or wish for something before we die...
Wish to have bigger funeral...
Wish to have a bigger coffin....

What about me??
I just thought about it during my way home and during bathing...
What I wish is that nobody knows about my death...
Except for my family....
Besides them,I wish nobody knows when i die,where i die or how i die...
Just die peacefully...

Why I think that way??
To me there's no need to let the whole world know our death...
Sometimes I feel,do people really care??
Other than family,I don't think other care...

问号？？？？

自私？？
选择？？
该不该？？

缘分？？
有吗？？
没有吗？？

爱着他？？
恨着他？？
需要吗？？

放弃？？
不放弃？？
要不要？？

天长地久？？
曾经拥有？？
实现吗？？

选择。。
我的手上？？
还是他的手上。。

复杂

我的生活一天比一天复杂。。
我的爱情一天比一天难熬。。
我的选择一天比一天减少。。

都是我的错吗？？
都是我在搞的怪吗？？
都是我太自私吗？？？

没人支持。。
没人安慰。。
没人鼓励。。

每天在等待着。。
每天在烦恼着。。
每天在想念着。。

到头来，没人理睬。。
到头来，没人来打通电话。。
到头来，都是自己的任性与自我。。

天长地久？？曾经拥有？？

天长地久？？
曾经拥有？？

我曾经相信过只要你真心诚意地对待一个人。。
天长地久将会是我们俩的未来。。
但每次的回应都是一片失望。。

而现在的我对天长地久这四个字。。
已经没感觉了。。
只相信曾经拥有。。

Weight issue

OMG...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I gain weight in a week...
Want to kill myself...

Chinese New Year...
Food like chicken,pork,vegetables etc made my body grew like a balloon...
Got to turn it down now...
Can't just let it grow and blow....

Must take care....
No matter what....

Gain new memories and remember the old ones

28 Jan 2009..
A night photo shoot with my friend,Munirih Jebeni...

She dressed up as a lolita gothic...
I help her with the dressing and photography...

Strike poses and laughter all the night...
Had fun that night....
Made me think back of the days me and my BFF,jigoku neko....
We dress up each other and take pictures,those were the days...

Miss you Dirty Cat.....